God’s plan

By Angeli

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Major things happened since I last posted here. Just a few days after my last post, I suffered an ectopic pregnancy. In early June, they took away our baby – who we’ve been praying for, but never knew was already in my tummy – and took away my right fallopian tube. I have been trying to write about it for months now to get it off my chest, but the right words never come. You don’t completely move on from something like that. Sometimes, even at my happiest, the dark clouds come. Someday, God will heal me.

But I am happy to report that things are a whole lot better now. Because by some miracle, in God’s perfect time, we started a new life in a new home.

Three weeks ago, we moved from noisy, busy Metro Manila to a small, quiet village way down south.

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We have cows, goats, and birds for neighbors. Every afternoon, I am treated to a live action National Geographic episode right in our “backyard”.

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The farm girl in me is doing cartwheels. Our new home reminds me so much of my childhood home in Bacolod.

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There’s room to breathe. We love it here. Especially the little girl. We needed this change of scenery.

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I believe we are unworthy of His blessings, but He chose to bless us anyway. God orchestrated the whole thing. And so I also firmly believe that God has greater plans for us in our new home. May He help us forget the pain in our hearts, and keep the darkness at bay. May we become His instruments, and be a blessing to others, in ways big and small.

If you are reading this with a broken heart, or a dark cloud looming overhead, believe this: God is preparing something big for you. As He did for me. Surrender your broken pieces to Him – things will be better in His perfect time.

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And so, I blog again. I hope to be back here regularly, sharing my God-given talents through crafting and writing, inspiring kindred souls. Here’s to more craft tutorials, and now, happy home improvement projects! Yay!

I would love to hear from you, dear reader. It’s been a while. Please leave a note for me in the comments!

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9 Comments on God’s plan

  1. Lucy
    15 October, 2014 at 9:48 pm (929 days ago)

    My heart goes out to you, Angeli. I hope you are physically healed and your new surroundins continue to mentally heal you. Building a family and a life isn’t the straight-forward road that we’re led to believe as children, but the strength we find ourselves as we face the obstacles in the road make us better equipped to serve the families we have. xoxoxo

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    • Angeli
      23 October, 2014 at 3:03 am (921 days ago)

      Dear Lucy, those were really touching and wise words. Thank you for taking the time to leave me a message! Hugs!

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  2. Pam
    15 October, 2014 at 11:04 pm (928 days ago)

    My thoughts and prayers are with you, Angeli! Even through such a terrible tragedy, I sense your strength and faith. You are a wonderful role model for your daughter of just how strong a woman can be.

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    • Angeli
      23 October, 2014 at 3:05 am (921 days ago)

      Dear Pam, I never really thought about myself as strong, but I’ve been getting that a lot from you ladies, so I realize now, maybe I AM a strong woman!

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  3. Joy
    16 October, 2014 at 7:58 am (928 days ago)

    Angeli,
    I’m so sorry for your loss and I know it takes a long time to heal from losing an unborn child. I’m glad that you’re now living in such a beautiful place with the peace of the natural world all around you. I’d love to hear about how you came to make such a change from big city living to country life. Blessings to you.

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    • Angeli
      23 October, 2014 at 3:12 am (921 days ago)

      Dear Joy, It’s so amazing how everything that happened the past few months are puzzle pieces that fit into one bigger puzzle. If I didn’t get sick in June, I wouldn’t have been on bed rest. If I hadn’t been on bed rest, I wouldn’t have spent so much time stuck at home with stitches on my tummy, wishing for a 2nd floor bathroom that actually works so I wouldn’t have to painfully go downstairs to pee or take a shower. If not for the little inconveniences, I wouldn’t have felt the big hunger to move to our own place. It was as if God had whispered in my ear: do this NOW because I have great plans for you.

      I’ve always wanted to live somewhere with lots of green, open space! Because I grew up in a village like that – my brother and I used to play outdoors a lot. We had goats!

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      • Joy
        23 October, 2014 at 5:37 am (921 days ago)

        Mercy me. I know the inconvenience of not having a bathroom upstairs where you sleep. Big confession here–I have a little bucket with a potty seat that I use upstairs because I wake up in the middle of the night to go to the bathroom. If I go all the way downstairs to the very far end of my house then I’m wide awake, not to mention cold, and it’s hard to fall back asleep. So here I am in the 21st century with a chamber pot! I’m so happy that you’re able to be back in the green and growing countryside. I’m so excited for you!

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  4. Ces
    22 February, 2015 at 12:59 am (799 days ago)

    thank you for the inspiring words. thank you for knocking some sense into me again that God has plans. I lived in Manila most of my life. spent a decade in the country scenery of Iloilo and now im back in Manila. i do not know what his plans are but through your blog i found myself holding on to his promise to me and my family. IT was not an accident that a friend showed me a cat that you made which prompted me to search for your site. I not only found some thoughts on crafting but a part of a puzzle that has been revealed. truly inspiring blog. :)

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    • Angeli
      3 March, 2015 at 12:42 am (790 days ago)

      Thank you so much, Ces, for taking the time to leave a comment. Your kind words mean so much to me. I am grateful to learn that my posts inspire someone else, and that I get to share God’s love through my blog. I wish you all the best. God bless you!

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